I have been finding things a bit hard to cope with the last few days, but today seems to be getting off to a better start!

I was putting the Boy Wonder back down for his morning nap for the third time this morning (this one finally stuck for more than fifteen minutes, thankfully!), and a few thoughts popped into my head which I thought were worth writing down. Because I’ve been stressing out about trying to get both of them to sleep with breastfeeding, I decided to reframe it. Instead of being about just putting them to sleep, I am trying to think of it as nourishing their hearts and spirits as well as their bellies. And I’ve adopted a new affirmation: “My job is to give them what they need; it’s not their job to give me what I need” (whether it’s an uninterrupted half an hour, or for one of them to stay asleep long enough for me to get the other one down, or what have you). I need to work on finding a balance between martyred motherdom and self-centred bitchness, obviously… *g*

While the Boy Wonder was snoozing, I got some laundry on, put away nappies (why the hell have all the flats evaporated?), did some washing up, and poured endless water into K’s little teaset as she kept me company on her ladder. We even managed to clean most of the counter off as a side effect of the amount of water she spilled. So far this morning she has had sufficient milk that she hasn’t needed any breakfast, despite having no dinner last night either. No wonder I’m losing weight!

Awww… he is feeding on my knee as I type, and K just kissed him on the head saying, “I love you so much”. What a sweetie 🙂